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No more short one sentenced forewords in italic for me anymore. I've moved on from that and decide to have a proper title for my posts instead.

Well what can i say? The last one seemed just like last week and now the exam season is back to torment us stressed out kids. Thank god mine starts on the 4th of next month but i know well enough to not subject myself to last minute studying anymore because there is more at stake here. Its trials goddamit, people say its probably more important than the real exam itself and i possibly couldn't agree more. For early intakes to colleges, scholarships, forecast results and a foundation for a remark if you shit up your real spm papers. See, i'm saying the trials are so freaking crucial but i'm hardly doing shit about it. Gosh i'm such a hypocrite.

I was on the sitting platform beside the huge camp 5 windows with brad yesterday, chatting about how we're so psyched about the greatness and importance of our spm. Honestly, like brad said, after hearing all the ex 5th formers talk about their survival with the encounter of the "great" examination, spm is just another bloated exaggerated test. Just like pmr, remember back then your parents would scare the crap out of you with threats of a tainted future if you dont study well and hard enough. Its all bullshit, pmr is yet again, another bloated exaggerated test to send the poor little 3rd formers into a studying frenzy. Anyone can get into the science stream, anyone can get into colleges, anyone can get into prestigious universities, with a little bling bling passing around behind our backs, anything is possible, even with the stupidest results. A great man once said, "school isnt actually about studies, its about education".

Leadership qualities, communication skills, Ps and Qs, mannerism, independance and rational thinking. You can study your ass off and be up at the top dueling with the smartest brightest prodigies, but without internal qualities, you're just another bag of book reading shit. Just having the qualities and applying it is separated by a fine line. Its what we learn, not how we fare. But with all the PURE pressure and beliefs instilled into us ever since lower education, we dont have another choice do we? Just study people!

I've yet to come up with a timetable which mum has been pestering me for. And oscar's ground sentence is tad bit overtime but thankfully he has overcomed his trauma of being caught in between a closing gate last thursday, the day he almost died. I still replay the scenario vaguely in my mind ever since, i was the one with the gate remote. Me and grandma with our herculean effort of holding the gate back while i frantically tap the remote button repeatedly and praying oscar's head stays intact at the same time. Oscar the dog there screaming like a pussy. Still sends chills to me. He could've been beheaded like that korean guy from one of the al-qaeda videos. Geez. Enough.

I'm done for today.

Jinny