Time to shape it and make it

Its a little too soon to be taking off don't you think?

The chinese new year is in approximately 10 minutes and I've already collected today a fair share of support funds for abroad. In about a week, I know I'll be terribly homesick, sick missing the new year buzz, gatherings and those late-night marauding to bars with the people I'll equally miss. 

One box of belongings has already found its way to Melbourne. And thats it, nothing else seems to be going just yet. I really thought It'd be easy, this whole packing up and leaving, leave out all the rest and start afresh. I really thought my persistence and determination to move on was impenetrable. Now I lay, emotionally even more attached to lets just say 'home'.

I bet thegirlfriend feels almost the same way too. Comfortingly, I have her with me until hann, melpong and that cousin of mine arrives later on in the month.

So far, work hasn't really been all too enjoyable without kelvin around anymore. But whoever's left makes attending to unscrupulous customers a little less of a hassle. Most of them customers aren't even worth as much as the clothes on their backs judging by the way they are. Its a common problem in Malaysian society. Staggering amounts of people who feel shop assistants of any sort are a rung below customers, or that because we serve therefore we are without ambition, direction or a future. Shame on you. 

I know my colleagues will be missed. 

6 days until I leave and BradJinn productions might be in the works again. I hope I've the capabilities to have 2 farewells, another day's work and one more night out. 

Then I'll put my head to rest.

Jinny

Swab but swap

"Love makes me stronger, hate makes me unstoppable."

First off, I apologize to those who still has no clue when I got back. I've delved straight back into my job and I've been overly occupied with some extra-curricular activities. At times I find myself lacking the time or patience for the computer.

The past week on an island was really refreshing. Like a much deserved break. Perfect for recharging and realigning principles in life. It made me realise how foggy yet bright the future is. Figuring this thin, feint, glimmer out with brad, what I plan to undertake does not necessarily guarantee a high-paying job or me masterminding something extraordinary. I'd dare take a step away from the stereotype. This prospect is quite self-consuming I must admit.

I'd open a reggae bar somewhere on a pristine beach and live out my life there if I must. I've been thinking actually about nomad-ing after obtaining a degree. After graduation, possibly with a business-partner, brad? We'll have a one-way ticket to any exotic location anywhere in the world, and take off. With the clothes on our backs and some extra undies in a knapsack. Rough it out and get a job and see what happens. 

Oblivious to the fact that we might have just wasted precious education funds. 

Thegirlfriend's coming home at noon tomorrow, and apparently she has more plans than I have. 

My room's a mess because of the process of mass packing, I'm leaving on the 2nd of February. Less than 3 weeks or so. I'm not ready to leave home just yet.

Jinny

Existence without existing

"Nothing stays the same."

I think I've adopted the new phrase as somewhat a philosophy for the new year. A personal outlook, no matter how general it sounds.

My only resolution for the new year is the exact same resolution I made to myself the year before, and the year before, and years and years before. 

Make this year different from the last.

In relation to that, I thought I did pretty awfully well with 2008. Undoubtedly, that means I stuck to my resolutions with distinctions. 

Its almost less than a period of a month before I'm leaving, and i've got to say this anticipation and hype is waning. Suddenly the prospect of leaving isn't so much so appealing. As much as I'm desperate to further my life on greener pastures by mere assumption. I dont think I'm ready just yet to bid farewell.

Oh, happy new year everyone. Especially to thegirlfriend, who's all the way over the arab side. With much love. 

Jinn